haha the weekends are here saturday is in a few hours and it means saturday training! i get to see chang-e! OK I CAN'T WAIT.

MY DEAR CHIN I SHALL NOW DEDICATE SOME PART OF MY POSTING TIME TO YOU!
OK YOU ARE GOOD LAH MAYBE NOT AS TALL AS THE REST OF THE PLAYERS BUT STILL GOOD. THIS YEAR WE ARE THE DISADVANTAGED YEAR SO JUST GO FOR YOUR U17 TRAILS FOR THE EXPERIENCE. IF YOU GO WITH NOT MUCH HOPE, YOU MIGHT GET A GREAT SURPRISE SO DO GO FOR THE FUN. ITS ANOTHER CHANCE FOR YOU TO PLAY NETBALL! AWAK HOBI BERMAIN BOLA JARING! SO ALL THE BEST FOR YOU MATCH! I WILL BE MORALLY SUPPORTING YOU FOR ACROSS THE SCHOOL! GO YUXUAN GO!

ok so the week has been fine, there was ptm today and mum said ms teo was very nice apologised for being late even though she wasn't. haha ya mum likes her she thinks she is a very refreshing type of teacher. and i still think my dad's fifth aunt is very fascinating. and i still haven't got to perth and i have to go. i will type tomorrow i hope. ching yi charmaine and sarah i hope i get to go down on sunday! all the best for the relays!
toot toot toot haha * 7:31 AM 0 rocked with me

its one more day left and i start to count down before i meet malay the language i have long alienated from my life i wonder if i can even speak it properly. so blocks are almost over and then i get to go for training and i finally get to recount the events that have happened in wala!

perth perth perth everytime there are blocks i will be thinking about competition. i need to get back to a busy life style before i think that i will be terrible at everything i do. i hope that is not true!
toot toot toot haha * 5:48 AM 0 rocked with me

been back for a few days and i want to go back or at least somewhere else. asean schools pacific games and there is this game that has a qualifying of 12m for dunno what kg ball. i hope i can reach 12 by nats and now all i want to do is to train so that i can throw throw and throw.


ok so the whole world knows that i sprained my ankle like 2 days before the flight, before that i went to obs and got my damm wrist right wrist slapped till the tissuses where broken and wrist sprained and then i went to perth riddled with injuries with chang-e's track teacher and inez and well everyone that has affected the trip some way or another. so there was all that things that happened and hello singapore i came back with another ankle sprained so now its 3 limbs down and ms see tho although you say that i will sprain my only remainding good wrist or the all precious neck and back, it still has not happened yet!



so here comes the grandmother story for wala perth 08!

i went to t3 for the second time in my life but the first time to take the plane from there. walked over saw some people then the first thing mr hanif asked me was like injured ah? ya cos i was wearing the wrist guard. then i was like ya and i was in longs so he didn't know that i sprained my ankle i guess so i was walking real slowly dragging my rather light luggage along. then we collected the tags, and track suit can you believe it they gave us track suit on the day of departure! haiyo ok nvm then they had to make sure that we pass the customs so i waved bye bye to alicia yuxuan seriously i didn't expect you to be ther. chang-e and claire that told me they were coming. and then we took pictures and ms seetho had her secret little talk with chang-e haha! ahh so glad to see you all! and of course mum! then went in sat at cofee bean and we actually sat at cofee bean and did homework in the airport. first ever homework trip! and in the end i realised that most people did pack their homework along!

so we got up the plane and then sat beside marcus and ikhsan i think the spelling is wrong but anyway he is gina's fake and embarrasing and sadly short little brother and he calls her da jie haha ya. he is going to sports school and join their family hahaha. ok so they watched movies ate, slept and ya we thought he looked abit thai. ya and inez asked me for the periodic table then i passed it to her and read through all my chem notes once and promptly fell asleep. then after the eating and reading and sleeping i reached perth!

went to queue at the customs that took a really long time then in the end i went with all the teachers they just came and joined me. mr oh and the vp bleah! and poor mr hanif was kind of stuck cos i think they taught he was a terriorist. haha ok.so we cleared customs and thankfully they let us bring in our shoes and then we went to the beutiful toilet and then up the bus for dinner at 4 so that the restaurant would not close! and then it was to the supermarket to buy lots of food and then to the wondeful beach hotel. so i went there unpacked a bit, bathed and then ice wrist and ankle tried doing work but there was people knocking on our door perpatually, they went out to walk, my other room mates and then in the end i went to the beach with them, to just walk around on the sand and according to coach remy it was good sand therapy for my ankles.

went back, talked to ms see tho about my life haha how cliche and she was from ntu. so then she decided to invite me to her room to study in peace cos the room was always noisy and ya the stayed out side the room for a while, then decided to pack my things and i left the room with my keys so i wouldn't be locked out. then went out and then i saw a laptop in her room. i wasn't even sure if it was her room but i just sat there and started on my chem notes. did a bit then head noises and then they came and let me into the room. so studied till midnight, went back cos my room mates came and pick me up then went back and then the room was like with the tv on and all that was did some maths questions, was unsuccesful at every of my own questions, did melissa's for her and ya i could do all then help her han yu pin yin her ban yue ji heping words! then i went into my room lie on my bed did one successful maths question and then fell asleep. took lots of phtos on the beach ya and i got none cos i haven't received it yet. i should go and view inez's blog too. hmm so many things to do. i shouldn't be wasting my time blogging during tests! ok nvm i shall just finish this. so then we woke up. packed then went to nacs for breakfast! haha i can't believe it then went for training, just threw abit, went to the flooded pit and ended up throwing on the rocks and then went to fremeantle, cincerella's fish and chips where i ate only the fish and i refused to eat the batter i don't know why and then had fizzy passionfruit juice and threw the rest away! what at waste of my precious 100 auzzie dollar allowance but well. went to walk around, bought a shirt for myself and zs and that was like after alot of walking around and not buying anything. we went into this shop krazy tees and they had this shirt vote for pedro! haha i thought it was fun to buy it for mr pedro but decided against that idea in the end. then went to croissant shop, they gave me their bags and then i got a chocolate and started doing lots of maths questions and i totally negelected circle properties but the test was not so bad. so after that we went to the train station and took a train to the apartment. went in, studied more, couldn't stand it then dunno do what and then we went to city centre for dinner,had wanton mee which was not nice, bought roc candy after that, went to watch the brazillian sparring and then listen to this guy talk about christianity and then walked back to the hotel, iced and then it was the first day of comp! that i promtly fell asleep infront of the aircon after i let myself out of ms seetho's room.

next day woke up drank a cup of milk then went to the stadium, did some work in the sun until it was 10 plus then wanted to go watch zhi hao but he hasn't started so went to watch lingdang and dube with inez after inez ran her hurdles and sadly she was slower than the malaysian by 0.1 second. so wasted! and she was eating ice-cream her comfort food then we went to watch zhihao and kangle was already there. he was second loosing to some guy from kingston that has this bright green jersey and they produce really good throwers. and then there was the march pass that was like a party and it was quite fun! then it was aiysah and zhixuan and me inez and melissa were sitting with a lot more people watching aiysah jump and suntanning ourselves. then it was off to watch syafiq jump and then up to the grand stands to do all the cheering for the primary school kids like iksan and phineas. cleared all the m&ms that they threw around and then went back, had to find halal place for aiysah so in the end we went with the guy teachers to this halal restaurant and i had chicken rice. went back to the hotel practicing for the walk along the way and then went up to bathe, wait for inez to bathe and then talked on the bed and fell asleep before that packed, pinned number tags and tape and guard.

next morning woke up went down for horid breakfast, collected pins, went up, collected stuff and then went to the bus. tried to sleep but couldn't.

toot toot toot haha * 9:20 PM 0 rocked with me

i am back from wala perth 08 happy with friends and wishing i would be able to go back again. but it will be my first and last and i have lots of interesting stories to tell. maybe tomorrow night after chem. i don't feel like going to school. i want to go sports school! but well its just a dream. ahh perth.inez, ms seetho, mrs aw the guys haha they are only in love on friday and coach remy! and parrylake stadium that will be gone by next year!

for the record with all the injuries i carried there i took one more home by stepping into a hole at the long jump pit. there goes both ankles. i am going physio tomorrow. at least she is nice.

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toot toot toot haha * 3:00 AM 0 rocked with me

i tried up loading pictures but well it just means another time. i love obs.

mum doesn't want me to go to perth at all! waste money

toot toot toot haha * 11:45 PM 0 rocked with me

haha i got a 100 posts already. well i am back here with a quite good wrist and a swollen ankle
somethings just happen don't ask me why. so i still think of obs and ingird why don't we go ob sabah together next year and be watch mates and sleep in the same tent then we will all be so happy cos it will not be physically tiring at all provided there are no injuries.

so it has been 2 session of physio at claymore point and mum was glad they charged me student rate. i am such a loyal customer, even the counter lady knows me! and she likes to offer me sweets everytime i go in. today i went in at 12 hungry and i still said no. i don't know why then i went back to the car and had 2 bananas haha i love banana's especially aunty jill's organic banana's that are super fat you eat one at lunch and you don't feel hungry even at dinner.

so i sprained my ankle today and my threshold for pain is rising and i think its no good. peilih eunice jessica and cheryl were like swarming around me like bees waiting to sting me just that they told me that i lost weight. look like i lost weight actually i haven't really. so i started studying and my house just got its electricity back. if it trips again i am going to 50 to stay for the night. go there got fan somemore. got light can study next morning got nice breakfast of what all my cousins claim as singapore's best scrambled eggs. da gu's cofee shop.

i am going back to study and i am getting weird ideas for pss awareness week hehe so fun. off to dinner first i guess everyone is back. jie i know you are going to tell me i am champion at dinner but i don't know why i am always so careless.

mum thinks that those are signs that i shouldn't go. i feel happy. don't ask me why. maybe after so much happening in the last few days, i am numbed. i do feel like talking on the phone but i feel that it is hard to listen. maybe i am a little deaf.

vivian i guess you wouldn't believe my luck. if i go to perth i can hopefully see you on msn next weekend. if i go.

i can't stop thinking. hehe
toot toot toot haha * 4:39 AM 0 rocked with me

more wrist updates.

went for physio one session after the other. the camden one ah not helpful at all. the one near iseatan so much better so i am going to see her again and she is nice and she has been to obs before. millie i think that's her name. the running was abit pain but it helped and she encouraged me to go training so i will go tomorrow but will have to leave at 9.30 and then i will go in the afternoon. its getting better but then i still have lots to do with my throws. my dear competitors you are in luck. but hopefully i will get to throw well tomorrow. may my technique be correct.

still afraid. don't feel like studying. argh

i want to see my heart and libin and talk to them again like the old days. the good old days
toot toot toot haha * 10:47 PM 0 rocked with me

WRIST UPDATES
all for my dear heart. my parents think i can't go. i will phone you once i get home from physio. i am sorry i made you worry. it is better but still weak

i am scared
toot toot toot haha * 8:46 AM 0 rocked with me

i can't stop thinking about obs. i can't wait to go back. i think it has the council camp effect. so here you are a day to day account of my obs journey.

day 1
went to jetty said byebye to ms teo and ms sab then went of sat there for very long apply sunblock and insect repelent wait wait then lead cheer and briefing. met vivian for the first time, checked the wet smelling store, learnt to fold tents, went to collect food and have lunch of bread and biscuits and raisins that people didn't want to eat cos they didn't want to shit. went to learn to pitch tent, trust fall that was too fast for me to enjoy anything, fake high element that was not high at all, did it once with vivian as belayer and once with dawn, belayed for dawn. started to rain, cooked dinner, madly opening cans to get food and throw away the food, had uncooked rice, sausages and corn. went to pitch tent in darkness, quite successful then went to bathe and then there was the packing that was totally not successful and the fire drill that allowed me to talk to ying hui for a bit. then go pack, was so tired i don't know why then fell asleep almost immediately. felt that camp was so boring i would rather go graces

day 2
packing day and then learnt kaying, rescue and capsizing and see-saw, kayaked to camp one, was day i/c and well the packing took way too long and i had no idea how to organise the people. so got to camp 1 that was like so luxurious, changed to dry stuff, went for high elements climbed first and then ended up in alya's way, had to climb down the other direction, went up the tyre's encouraged wan yi my good friend to perserve and when she reached the top, i was so glad for her! then i reached the top myself then dawn lowered me down, didn't give me enough slack and i was hopping around looking like a rabbit and have the da gama people and vivian laugh at me. so after that was the best obs dinner at the cook house with the nice chengtng tasting syrup and chicken that was fresh and then to tent pitching and walking into the wrong toilet to bathe and then supper and the huging of crying people, pig personality test and then sleep. was more awake, giggled with wanyi abit too much at someone's snore then fell asleep.

day3
woke up late, missed flag raising, was so sad i felt bad ok cos i like flag raising, i am proud of my country, the flag i feel for. pt was like one of the best cos of fast run the the games and moving of bags from this place to that and then games which we won one, skipping was horid but i know that most tried their best then pacing with huijun. i counted wrongly at first then in the end we didn't need it and just anyhow walked to the obstacle course then went to the water plant to hide from the rain, played lame games and then started journey, trekking was fun! i enjoyed it with jiawen eventhough i was carrying shirlynn's ten tonn thing. talked complained, reached finally and scolded this guy stupid guy cos he didn't say hello and thanked this uncle for getting off his bike i don't know why. saw the super nice adventure camp, continued trekking, bowed infront of an alter with jiawen, finally reached campsite, pitch, cook, listen to vivan talk, packed a bit, sleep, woke up for sentury duty which was irritating and painful, walked one round. couldn't stand it anymore, slapped legs and then woke hui jun's tent up. went back to tent, killed insects and whatever not, couldn't sleepcos of limited space, tossed and fell asleep on my side and whacked lanxin in the middle of the night accidentally. wanted to go home so bad

day 4
woke up at 4.20 packed, panicked, pour water,shifted bags onto boat and as i was on the boat i was spared the shifting of the kayaks. got down started of with huiyan as my partner, was really enjoyable,then jumped into the water that was nice too then huiying(big) and then ate salted oranges while peeling the peel out for her. she was light and easy to push on. the later partner was not that light. the well the ultimate. i changed with ingrid cos i felt sorry for her. that i made her so tired. it was my fault and so i took the responsibility to account for it. i am sorry i made you suffer ingrid. truly sorry.along the way i threstened to slap her, throw her of board and let her float back to her mother land or crash into the fence. thankfully that did not happen. then she told me that she wanted to talk to me. that was my lowest point. i shall write that for my reflections instead. so i was a little more polite on the boat and then when we were sent back to shore, she whacked my paddle my wrist went back and that was when it was really bad. she hit me a couple of time both hands but i persisted cos i wanted to finish the journey not the race. then it was the shifting with ingrid and sijia and i din't use my right at all then the round circle. and everyone was so tired we were all pissed i did not feel at all accomplished as i kept thinking about the talk. how to retaliate. then pitched tents, collect water bottles, embarrassed myself infront of many then took clothes went to bathe with sijia and jessica tan, complained about the ultimate and then went to buy time for the rest to bathe, took mess tins, pots and food out, met vivian along the way, picked up the food, dropped it and there goes my wrist. so i picked most up with my left walked to mph them went back to help wanyi wash and the took food and other things, went to meet vivian as a group. did first incisions for cans then opened with left for the remainding. ate with dawn. sharing with her is fun! then went over to complain to sijia and dione and then ingrid fed me they cried for haizu, i still didn't feel anything for vivian. washed everything on time met vivian with the lv bag and then got my wrist wrapped, went to bed with jiawen cos we forgot to built one tent. fun cos i got to talk to her but kept waking up and moving around to find space cos my wrist was hurting. hurting

day 5
last day
woke up up pitched, left tents out to dry, washed fly sheets, met vivian for pt did some wizard version of scissors paper stone then when we were suppose to play captain's ball, i told vivian about my swollen hand, she reduced the swelling but it still felt weak. went to the souviner shop there to have this last reflection and group talk where ultimate told everyone she tried her best and her partner did not appreciate it and she kept dreaming about her hand the whole night because it was so numb. i told everyone about my take aways from the camp and stuff like that and also how short my focus span is so ya then we had breakfast, did the jump and i made the bell ring the loudest. i comitted my self to perserve, to be patient and to give my full to everything i do. i shall start from tomorrow with the revising of my work. then went to pack store, was sent to sweep floor cos of hand and then help hang the tents and ponchos and whatever not up then when all was done, sat in a circle, did evaluation for vivian and obs then gave out certs thanks dawn for clapping real loud for me. got photos and was standing beside ultimate bleah and then got things bought souviners for cheryl too then talked to libin and alicia then asked vivian for ice didn't get it in the end, did three cheers for vivian, teared and tried to hold it back then got her msn that i don't know whether its right or wrong and also her telling me that she will call me to check on my hand but i have not received the call. and i can't wait for it! vivian! ya and then the journey on the boat, then when we reached punggol i looked back to obs, looked out for ms teo then told her about my hand and then claire saw ms chia, jumped and fell so unglamorously onto the rough ground and got herself cut. then ms sab said i looked dead and my wrist looked weird then called mum, sms ms teo to complain and then talked to claire and then after that reached school then drop libin and alicia at libin's house went home, bathe call elaine, told ms tan sleep wake up eat. the rest i shall not say.

things i will never forget
nature valley, chocolate bread,can opening
vivian!
you made me learn lots more than i could since you didn't help us so much. thank you vivian. i really thank you and it makes me have fond memories of obs.
that will be etched in my mind forever.
I LOVE OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE. I LOVE VIVIAN. I LOVE MOST OF COOK.


toot toot toot haha * 6:07 AM 0 rocked with me

what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
i can safely say that i will remember obs for my life. it might not be the best camp in terms of fun factor but then it does impact me and i did grow after talking to people. people much more mature than me. so i have learnt to set standards, expect the unexpected and also "To serve, to strive, and not to yield" it made a difference in my life and now its time to move on and embrace the new challenges ahead of me. the obs journey ends but its lessons go on for ever. i belief that obs is not torture. it is learning through adventure.
toot toot toot haha * 6:30 PM 0 rocked with me

i am back from obs. tired. ms sab said i look dead. my wrist hurts. my right wrist.



Outward Bound Singapore

my instructor is not the nice type. but she made us grow alot. for me i grew and i know it. its the best camp i have ever been too. not the most fun but the best. it made me learn alot. see many people's real side and even my own. it taught me to push on. i could live with all that but i was unhappy. with my friends with my self with vivian. she is concern maybe its her job but well for somethings that happened i know its our fault and somethings, totally out of our control like weather.



i don't want to say anything. i want to talk to someone i had the urge to go all the way back to ubin. i want to do it all over again. block tests are coming! i miss vivian, i miss camp 2.

on the sad side i still hate my partner
toot toot toot haha * 6:03 AM 0 rocked with me

obs the long awaited is now here. i want to go but i am a little apprhensive cos i am afraid that i haven't brought everything. i hate it when my mum rules my life whether i can watch tv or not! everything i do is controlled by her. i am loosing my focus day by day! i don't fell like getting it back i just want to get rid of my work and get a 75% cos it is what my mum asks for so that she will let me stay in council.

from sec1 till now i have been doing things my mum disappoves.
secone was to join throws
sectwo was council elections and subcequently council
secthree not yet.

and i like these things. she tells me is good if i can do it but she is always critising it. using it to threaten me and i hate it! my life is a total screw up and it will totally suck if not for those things if she doesn't approve but maybe it might be those things she doesn't approve that makes my life so sucky but whatever it is i am hanging on. i will continue to do it. and my choice career for now is to my parents dissaproval too!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
toot toot toot haha * 6:37 AM 0 rocked with me