Like what i told the school eventhough i have no idea whether they are listening or not, it not the end but its the beginning. so as i move on and i am still in this half in half out mood. its really weird but still i will learn to accept it. I miss obs alot i do now since i read yuxuan's post. I will heed your advice and be constantly careful when i train especially now sinceseason is coming. Jiaolian said that my throws were fine. i hope technique is right now so i can concentrate on making it far. i still hope to break 10 hehe i do.

It is good to take on alot of things ok i like to pack myself untill i have no time to spare like every 5 mins is essential but when it comes to doing it i will take my own sweet time especially changing shoes after training. changing shirt too. that little girl on sunday times having too little time to herself. i think its fine. i was one of those type of kids just that i did not have sakamoto maths and creative writing. i had lots of chinese lessons haha eventhough my chinese is terrible now. i enjoyed those lessons on carpeted floors hah. weird lessons like something about worms. haiya kindergarden was so fun also don't need to do anything. i can only remember the playground. and learning to spell because and monday! hahaa

I shall train more lah fill up my time eventhough i know i won't be doing anything productive at home like now! ok if i don't train i will feel bad that i left for nothing.

~+Aud+~ Dream on says:
but there should be no more full day trng
let time heal everything says:
if you don't want there isn't
let time heal everything says:
if you want there will always be

i will train more. hehe
toot toot toot haha * 12:48 AM 0 rocked with me

i feel so loved. i am so touched. i shall elaborate some other time.

I WILL MISS YOU YU XUAN AS YOU WALK AROUND UBIN OR KAYAK AROUND THE SEAS OF SINGAPORE! WE GOT A NEW ISLAND
toot toot toot haha * 7:04 AM 0 rocked with me

its sealed
toot toot toot haha * 9:13 AM 0 rocked with me

i am an athelete, i am a human being. i have feelings and once somethings are done, i can't just put it down. maybe i don't sit down and think when its midway during training. maybe everything comes too quickly. i wanted it in primary school when i was so impressed by shimin and jiaen and biqi. at sec one i was just a far away dream, sec 2 a near dream, sec 3 a realised dream that might just end tomorrow. it has made me what i am today, as of now. for what i have done i thought started out as a responsibility but now a passion. i just want to do it. i dream to see it happen.

I envision a day when it all comes true and maybe i can leave at ease. its not what others say but what i want, the passion that drives me to doing it. to not dread it no matter how painful and tough it gets. But out of fear i don't want to retaliate to what the coaches have done for me. out of passion i tell myself to stand up for what i want.

i had a WALA PERTH dream that came true. i had this dream that came true too. it was just a dream that needed a longer time to persue and complete. a dream i want and i don't think that i can just put down because i look forward to going to YOG. i know i have chance but without training i will not. but will i be able to put all down and focus or will i just feel so lost? i still ponder but my mum over rules it. she still does and it is not like i am fantastic at convincing her. i am decided but she opposes it.
toot toot toot haha * 7:05 AM 0 rocked with me

oh open house was on sat and i got to tell you something!

Ms Yap our principle haha ya she came and told me and yuxuan that she was going off to australia tonight and then i think was it karen or mrs chua that told me she is so hip! haha i think its quite funny cos she just came and said she was leaving now cos she was going to australia tonight. oh and mrschua thought me how to pin my blazer properly. hehe so now i will not look so revealing in it! open house was fun hot and hanjing called me an evil monster for that! i was doing the job that no one wanted by bursting all the ballons. which reminds me i have yet to claim money from ms lye! haha i shall do it quick before she forgets! err wednesday morning maybe? or tuesday after school or during the break. ahh wed break is going to be a mad rush but fun! ahh SWC we will be together through thick and thin!
toot toot toot haha * 7:10 AM 0 rocked with me

i happily gave all my chem ws to mrslai together with my file so my schedule is busted. i have to get down to completeing all the PSS as the welfare one is well varied so i have alot to type.

Btw its spelt COUNCILLORS. haha we don't counsel people. i want to read more english book. argh du shu bao gao! haiyo i don't know how to do i. how to read 2 chinese books in a month without feeling like sleeping or changing it to an english book? ok that aside i shall be training harder so i will have to up my training schedules esp since i am missing alot alot of trainings due to SLC. hopefully i get to go down on monday afternoon. if not i will not be training for a week. but well trainings have to come with quality and quantity.

jiawei laoshi wo ke neng liang ge yu bu jian ni, nian di yan chu ye ke neng bu neng can jia yin wei wo yao dao beijing qu duo liao jie chuan tong wen hua, kan kan olympics de xian chang!

why do i have so many things?
toot toot toot haha * 1:25 AM 0 rocked with me

its on swearing and being vulgar and i hate it. the refree that i asked if i could wait till the announcement was over then throw that said no that turns out to be a lady from rjc! ahha she is their track i/c with ms seetho? i think i like ms seetho better. about the announcement thing i guess they are right so train harder it means. oh and she is ms poon luckily i didn't go and attempt to call her anything like excuse me sir hahaha as wenqi said it i would have got 2 m taken away. that leaves me with 7.3.

i realised that i go and look at the age group rankings time and time again and well i can't wait for it to be updated. SAA hurry up. well so there was this girl in a blue shirt that was swearing so much it was so irritating. then she went on to ask us if we not this girl called sharlene and she is j1. then i was like maybe. haha i think i know lah wron gperson also no harm. and she went on to say that sharlene was from track. then i was like no. i can remember all the seniors! then from council. then she went on to show her the council photo and then she was like i was stripped of the post before photo taking hahahahahhahaha after investiture photo taking haha and then ok a big bunch of lies. and that girl that said it sweared in front of the refree's face! and she didnt get red card not even yellow card! she is sososososo irritating! i can't stand it thankfully she didn't make it to top 8 cos she had no throws for all 3 throws. that aside she announced very loudly that she got in to her school through dsa by leadership and choir and now she is in choir cos she thinks its stupid. i think she is childish and why isn't she in their leadership body if she dsa leadership? why join track and field when you totally spoil the name. it is this kind of people that give track such a bad name. if she behaves like that at nats, she will have no future at all. maybe she will only get one throw. for the good of the a div girls she should not be there. thankgoodness she is not in the same division and i will never be in the same division!

counsellors haha ok its of someone's blog scolding us for booking them and chasing them out of their class. i admit sometimes and more often than not, i make more enemies than friends. that person was in my watch and at OBS i totally despised her cos she was a free loader for alot of things. when i do things, i want to do it as a team. i believe strongly in the one for all all for one theory. so if you don't do it why should people be nice to you if you drag the team down, many a times at OB i was doing all the ku gong. do you know i carried alot more than you? do you know that even if we felt like giving up we never did? did you know that? OB is over we all learnt. i don't really see you much in school but i hope you are doing well. so she critisied us as a whole for booking people being unfeeling and absolutly un-understanding(i don't think there is such a word) people. we are human. and i speak for myself. it pains me to book people. it does. i wish and hope and pray i catch no one. sometimes i walk fast so as to hope to see no one but yet i end up bumping into someone eating. it puts me in a dilemma. i face you and my conscience. i hope you destroy your evidence then i can't say anything. i hope you run away and make me unable to chase you. but yet people let us book them. i believe in karma and for the past 2 terms, everytime i do recess patrol i fall sick. we don't book cos we want to but it is an obligation, intergrity, a price to pay. i hope you understand and if your classmate commmited the mistake everyone has to pay for it graciously.

on a lighter note i just realised that i have not written all my homework down and its 2.25. i want to talk to wenqi online again. tomorrow shall be the day and i will sleep early so that i will have a good training.

things to do. chem ws17, chi lecture things and PSS.

hols homework:
too many i don't dare to list. must remember to get it off huijun's blog
toot toot toot haha * 10:39 AM 0 rocked with me

all comers are finally over. the first time i hated the ite atmosphere cos the stadium was too big and there was too little people. today there was a number tag frenzy. mr lim went all the way to simei, the jav girls had one qualifier, i did not even see claire, i did not talk to liuyi, i was telling carolyn alot of random things at the pit. i was trying to give her some confidence. i don't feel nervous neither am i very confident cos i am just calm. i wanted so much to break pb the other all comers. reach 9. today i finally did it and i learnt that i have to be able to throw with noise. i guess i got to sut all the noises out especially when mr lim is around with his very funny jokes. i lose focus too easily too. especially with so many things on mind now council throws and the ever daunting school work.

june camp.
i should go because its good bonding.
it like a realisation a preparation for surviving without seniors
it is good cos we learn from it
it is for batch 09 from batch 08
i want to go when i don't get to go
i shouldn't go cos i am so injury prone
i have nationals and walaa singapore like soon after the camp
i need to focus on training well after having a whole year of terrible trainings.


but the verdict is not out. i wouldn't know.

all i can do is to focus during training and hope that i reach 10. weiying i know you are my competitor but i hope your injury recovers soon.
hannah stop eating so much bananas. haha just a pun. but she is really very power. argh train harder train harder. FOCUS! ITS THE WAY TO GO.

ms seetho just stop making me feel like a traitor to HC ok i will go to the school across the bridge. dr mok was from there too.
toot toot toot haha * 9:22 AM 0 rocked with me

yay its tomorrow but there is lots of chinese hols homework and i need to do my chinese SBQ during the weekends. i will do it on sunday after comps! argh comps my throws today were not bad but i still yang tou. i can throw 9 ahaha i like to think that way. 9.6 somemore hahhahaha. but i guess jiaolian was randomly sprouting numbers and well i could only last 2 throws and its not enough.

on a side note there is WALA perth outing on sat haha i am only joining them for dinner and its poh's birthday so i might grab him something first. sakae i heard. hmm sushi! inez i really can't wait to talk to you.

and well i am now madly typing PSS and so was Xin Yun. and we will be till we finish. girmy suggeston form oh man! aha don't complain. thanks to all the people who wrote suggestions! there is also a new box that looks nice so thanks OM tan. i am so amused cos kelly decided to have this little party and well we can celebrate someone's birthday together though its late oh and i forgot shuting's present. maybe i should make her something.

exco or not actually not for me to decide but then well it is in my mind especially when i had to meet yenjin during recess and i have to meet her again in the morning cos we never got to the topic. hahaha ya so fun! its like ranting sessions but its logical and good for evryone. i will do whatever to make it the best but i don't want to bite more than i can chew so i am still contemplating. june camp. when i can go i dread it. when i can't go iwish i could. if i went and something happens to me, i will totally regret. i don't go i will think that i have loss out. just like today's track meeting! argh i want to know what happened!

whatever it is should be done to the best. and well random quotes on leadership. slc pslc and i am quit excited. nationals and victory dinner
toot toot toot haha * 10:14 AM 0 rocked with me

one more day before sabbats, one more day before i start physics sia which has been long neglected and one more day before open house and then comps on 18. i am kind of reluctant to go but since i am going i have to do my best! i just looked at the age group rankings and well i am 1m plus plus away from hannah. so i must train harder. the one meter will make it or break it. i need to pass 9 for 4 and hopefully 10 soon. before nats. must train harder and hope that i will be fine till nats.

council camp to go or not to go. its not for me to say. for council i should go. for throws i should not go. for ms tan jiaolian and mr lim i should not go. for dad and mum i should not go. for myself i want to go but i don't think i should. for YOG (yes i dream to go want to go yearn to go and hope to go)i should consult ms tan. maybe i shall meet her on friday during lunch. maybe. no i should. i shall ask. maybe xiao you should go to. maybe. but i will definitely meet her.

tomorrow is meeting day everyday has been meeting day. i want to go for track meeting yet ms tan says go for NYSL meeting. nvm there will be people to tell me what happened. i need a motivational speech. ms tan's ones always work on me. it inspries me.

i am proud to have track as part of me. so i will train harder. add weights for fan tomorrow. at least 1.25 up. what have i been doing during training? the 15kg? i must must must reach it before i leave nanyang! Peilih are you sure you want to go RJ? Or have you been making jokes for fun and fooling me?

i love throwing. i love track. i must sleep so that training will be goo.
toot toot toot haha * 9:02 AM 0 rocked with me

i miss 2/6 2/6 2/6 2/6 2/6 2/6



i never thought so for i just left but now i feel it so bad. i want to be back together as a class again. the good old days. libin i wil look for that picture. i must and i will
toot toot toot haha * 10:22 AM 0 rocked with me

No matter how bad i am at expressing emotions, i do have them.

PSS awareness week is half over. i can't say that i have put in my best in publicity because i know that i could have done more only after the whole ting started. when i worried that i would not get anything and when i worried that nothing would be feasible. when i worried that i would not be able to do a good job. when i smack myself for wanting to meet msteng during recess and not knowing what happened during lunch because i went for GM. when i worried there will not be anyone mending the store. When i worried i would make a fool out of myself on stage. when i worried that there will not be assembly.

I worried so much for this . i feel for it. i want to help. i want to get a suggestion that wows me. something out of the ordinary material things. i know they are the fastest things that would be put into place. i take PSS as something personal. something that you suggest from the bottom of your heart and only when i agree with you will i then be able to put my heart into helping. i know somethings cause trouble especially when they are new and implemented in the middle of the year. i suffer if you think you suffer. i enjoy if you think you do. the management is not that far i am sure that they will open up if we are rationale about our suggestions.

i set myself a quota and i need help in reaching it. it is something so small compared to the whole population. i hope it works. it is my heart into the project for it is something i want to do well in. i do not believe in just passing time. whatever i do i have to do it to the best of my abilities lest my consciencess haunts me. I feel for the project. I want it so badly to be good but it is not entirely in my hands.

i just hope for one good one from more than 1200 people. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?

TO BE OR NOT TO BE I SIT ON THE FENCE.

MY BUTT GETS POKED.

OW SO HOW?
toot toot toot haha * 8:50 AM 0 rocked with me

i think i spent my time doing homework eating walking to the toilet and my day is almost over. looking forward to sat training ok gm i must get ready for the update. oh and i still have cl sia and i must get the la sia things sorted out. ahhh still so much to do. i can't wait to see the playback teacher too haha.

you better study harder and stop playing so much or dreaming is the one that kills. your maths sucks now you can't even do simple equations! wake up study harder and train harder!
toot toot toot haha * 3:01 AM 0 rocked with me