i wonder if i am just finding excuses for myself. i wonder if i am really going to break. i really want mum to be back. my life is such a mess. i need to practice piano tomorrow. i need to throw better. but tomorrow i have to write the compo. the one i have put aside for so long. tomorrow there are so many things to do. i really wonder. i just can't wait for thursday there are no lessons but now i dread piano. i wonder if i should just stop it. i need to get my nyaa cip done. yet i don't seem to have the time. i want to throw well yet tomorrow i am not going for training. i want so much but everyone has the same amount of time. i need to do minutes. minutes i have never done before.

i am a sucker for notes and letters and my mum use to write me lots of notes for encouragement in primary school before exams! and i still have them in my drawer! i just read the card alicia and yuxuan wrote for my for walaa and well i wonder it i was too confident on sunday because i didn't really panic. i might have fell into a hole but its time to pick myself up and overcome all the injuries! may my injuries get better faster! ahh my ankle is taking a long long time to heal!

i love you mum and dad! i miss you!
toot toot toot haha * 7:51 AM 0 rocked with me