i am an athelete, i am a human being. i have feelings and once somethings are done, i can't just put it down. maybe i don't sit down and think when its midway during training. maybe everything comes too quickly. i wanted it in primary school when i was so impressed by shimin and jiaen and biqi. at sec one i was just a far away dream, sec 2 a near dream, sec 3 a realised dream that might just end tomorrow. it has made me what i am today, as of now. for what i have done i thought started out as a responsibility but now a passion. i just want to do it. i dream to see it happen.

I envision a day when it all comes true and maybe i can leave at ease. its not what others say but what i want, the passion that drives me to doing it. to not dread it no matter how painful and tough it gets. But out of fear i don't want to retaliate to what the coaches have done for me. out of passion i tell myself to stand up for what i want.

i had a WALA PERTH dream that came true. i had this dream that came true too. it was just a dream that needed a longer time to persue and complete. a dream i want and i don't think that i can just put down because i look forward to going to YOG. i know i have chance but without training i will not. but will i be able to put all down and focus or will i just feel so lost? i still ponder but my mum over rules it. she still does and it is not like i am fantastic at convincing her. i am decided but she opposes it.
toot toot toot haha * 7:05 AM 0 rocked with me